If you follow my blog, I am sure you have noticed there was quite a hault in my progress over the past year. I started out strong, and tried to make the committment of blogging 5 times a week. For the most part, I was pretty consistent with my work, that is, until April set in, and then things pretty much went downhill. Recently I put some thought into why I wandered away from something I enjoy so much; my blog, and writing. I took mental inventory of the past several months in my life: in April of last year I was preparing to finish school. I was busy with projects, and deadlines. I was preparing for finals and graduation. That took up a great deal of time, and energy. Then, and I am happy to report, I graduated! I was super excited and proud of my accomplishment. After graduation I was ready to begin a new adventure...a BIG GIRL job, but guess what? The job was not ready for me. After countless resumes mailed, interviews, and calls, I was unable to find a job in my field of choice. So then...I became very depressed, and saddened by the fact that I was ready for the world, but the world was not ready for me! Summer came and went, and finally in September, I landed my dream job! I began working in right after Labor Day, and my life became crazy. I was busy learning new tasks, a new environment, and managing a new staff. But in the back of my mind I still thought about my blog, and how much I missed it. I then began to recognize my fear, or being scared to open my blog and write. I felt I had fallen of course, and I was scared, and due to the time I had taken off, I was ashamed to admit I was not following one of my dreams, my blog. The holidays came and went, and well, I still was not blogging! But then something happened....everyday I began to think about my writing and how much I missed it. I began to think about how I NEED to write because it is a creative outlet for me, and being creative keeps me alive in so many other areas in my life. Writing and my blog began to show up in many places; friends telling me to write a book, random topics popping into my head, wondering if I even remembered the password to my blog! I guess the universe was telling me...it was time to write again! So, when February 29th came around, I thought to myself..."Self, what better day to re-start your blog, than today...an extra day of life that we are given!" And I did it! I was scared, and kinda still am. After all, what if I don't have time to write everyday, or what if I can't think of topics to write about. But guess what?...for today all is good. I am writing, I have a topic to write about, and I am scared no more!
Today's activity: being scared
By definition: being nervous, worried, or anxious
Is there anything you have been scared about recently, so you just keep putting off thinking about it, or addressing the issue? Is there anything you keep pushing under the carpet, but no matter how swiftly you move your broom, the carpet keeps popping up? Maybe you are scared of the things you have been putting off. Perhaps you think too much time has passed, and now how could you possibly pick up where you left off? Well, I am here to tell you...you CAN pick up where you left off. You CAN take baby steps, putting your fear aside, and before you know it, the emotion of being scared is quickly overpowered by the emotion of being powerful, and making way on the goal you set out to do. Who really cares if you started to write that book 2 years ago, but haven't touched it in 6 months? Who really cares if you started a diet 3 mornths ago, but fell off the wagon? Who really cares if you planned to write a letter to your elementary school friend, but just haven't had the time or energy to do it? The bottom line is...YOU CAN START TODAY! Today I encourage you to not look at what you have not accomplished, just stay focused on what IS possible. Before you know it, fear and being scared will no longer exist, but you will soon be surrounded by countless numbers of projects and tasks that you have completed, because you are scared no more! It is easy, just pick up the pen, just turn on the computer, or just start with one healthy meal. One second, one minute, one hour, one day at a time you can make your dreams come true! Trust me, after all, I AM blogging again, and it feels great! xo
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