on disappointment...

It’s ironic that I love life so much, and I am so full of personal joy, when I often suffer from personal disappointment. While I have learned, through life, not to have expectations of others, I do have very high expectations for myself. Very good on one hand, because when I accomplish a goal, I feel great. Bad, on the other hand, because I do find myself being disappointed quite frequently. Allow me give you a few examples. I was laid off from a wonderful job a few years back. While I understand there is a gift in everything, however, losing the job was huge blow to my ego, and quite a life lesson. While a young child to raise, and a life to lead, I set out to find a new job; a new career. Well, little did I know I was in for yet another life lesson. After many months of applying and interviewing for over 400 jobs, I decided I needed to return to school, and expand my education. While I was disappointed in not being able to find a job, I am nearly done with my “second time around” college experience, and a have a new skill set to add to my degree. Another example is similar to my job search, but it has to do with finding someone to share my life with. I have been divorced for ten and a half years. While I am really happy in life, it wasn’t always that way. For many years, and even sometimes these days, I hoped and prayed for a new love in my life. While I have dated and have had a few serious relationships, since my divorce, I am still a single person. While I long to be in a committed relationship, and I am often disappointed that I am single, I know that I am where I need to be right now. The past decade has allowed me to discover who I am, the real Pink, and it has also allowed me to be the best mom that I can be to my daughter. I may not have been able to be the person I am today, if it weren’t for being single for the past years. Lastly, my weight always seems to be an issue for me. The numbers on the scale go up and down. When I am up, I am so disgusted with myself, and I work really hard to get the numbers down, and then when the numbers are down, they always seem to creep back up, finding me disappointed with myself. I know that life is all about peaks and valleys. I also know that life is not about what we are dealt in life, rather, it is about how we deal with what we are dealt. I keep my chin up, and smile, because I know that, one day, I will have the job of my dreams, I will be dating my soul mate, and I will okay with my weight, whatever that number may be!

Today’s activity: disappointment

By definition:  to fail to fulfill the expectations

Today I encourage you to look inside of you, and identify the areas of your life that have caused you disappointment. While this may be a painful or tough exercise, it is really a personal exercise that should be addressed. While suffering from personal disappointment, from time to time, may seem like a bad or negative thing, it is not. Rather, acknowledging personal disappointment means that you have set personal goals or expectations for yourself, and perhaps you have come a little short on seeing the finish line. Falling a bit short on our expectations is just fine, because we are all human. Falling short on our personal expectations just means we have to work a little harder, and try to hit that finish line a second, third, or fourth time. Falling short on our personal expectations only means that we will celebrate our personal accomplishments a little bit bigger, a little bit louder, a little bit more often!